Well, this weekend has been a lot of bringing all the information we have together. We still don't know anything new. I could tell you that my mom has a low density mass, which is not a good thing. And that we have a long road ahead of us...
Unless of course, you believe in miracles. I do.
So, God really knows my heart. I don't know if you knew. I just have to share this:
Tonight I was walking into my mom's closet to get her suitcase out. I always kinda look around hoping to see something of my dad's in there(they used to share the closet). Well, I did and it rocked my world. I looked up at the top shelf, that used to be "his area of the closet" and found some baseball hats, secretly hoping I would find one that I could wear sometime. I like that sort of thing. OK, so what do I find? I find a Houston Astros' hat!!! Here I am about to leave for Houston and my dad is saying, "what up from heaven? I'm here." God is so simple and knows me so intimately. It's amazing.
If you don't get the significance, here it is: my dad passed away four and half years ago and I am going to Houston on Tuesday to battle my mom's cancer with her. My dad never lived in Houston, and pretty sure he never visited it either. He just had a random-A Houston hat. So, as you've probably gathered my now, I'm bringing it with me.
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Dearest Meredith, I am so grateful for your blog updates. As I write this, I am feeling two things. First, my heart is overflowing with tears. As a mother, I can only imagine the heartache your mom is going through at even the thought of leaving you. I want her to know that she has done, is doing a beautiful job with you and that all she may hold in her heart as worries or regrets are forgiven already through Jesus. I cry also for you, because you are so young and have had so much, too much (in my opinion) to deal with. The second feeling I have is that whatever happens, you and your mom are in God's hands and I know that is true. And I pray for the miracle of life to continue for your mom, knowing that no matter what, you are both ultimately safe. You are safe.
Speaking of coincidences, today my mom sent me a note I left for my Dad in his Bible when I was college student. The note fell out of Dad's Bible and my mom sent it to me. I opened it today. It reads: "Do not worry what might happen tomorrow. The same Everlasting Father who cares for you today will take care of you tomorrow. Either he will shield you from suffering or he will give you unfailing strenght to bear it. Be at peace then and put aside all anxious thoughts and imaginations," St. Francis De Sales. Dear Meredith, let's let our tears and our fears be prayers too, for surely God hears them that way. I am so grateful to your mom for bringing you into this world and grateful to God for bringing our paths together. Blessings and Love, helen
Meredith,
Wow, I am just so excited that your mom gets to go to Houston. What a blessing! Know that I am praying for your mom and for you and am so overwhelmed at your faith and strength in Him. I am humbled by it. Thank you for seeking Him wholly through this! We miss you and love you! Please dont hesitate to call if you need anything at all...i mean anything! Love you tons girl!
I absolutely LOVE how God reminds us He is in the DETAILS of everything!! He knows our smallest heart's desires. How amazing :)
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