The Last Lecture

If you have some time, check this out:

The Last Lecture: www.youtube.com/watch?v=ji5_MqicxSo

Actually, the first time I watched this, it was before I knew my mom had cancer and it opened my eyes.

Well, there has been more hype about pancreatic cancer now that Patrick Swayze had the special with Barbara Walters. pancan.org Just the commercial advertising it stated: "Pancreatic cancer is one of the deadliest forms in the U.S. Just 20 percent of those who are diagnosed are still alive a year later".

Mom is dying and I really struggle watching her suffer like she is. I know most of you would say spend all the time you can with her, but it isn't her. She isn't really all there. It's the saddest thing. I miss talking with her about every little thing. 

Apparently, during the special with Swayze, he quoted the expression, " you better get busy living, or you'll be busy dying". My brother shared that with me and some of us are just busy dying. 

I couldn't bring myself to watch the special. I don't like hearing all the statistics of the success rates of this cancer, because they are painfully low and I like to think that maybe I'll be surprised by mom. Every case is different. Cancer is cancer, and people are people and we know they go hand in hand these days and let's just hope we can be as mysterious as the cancer, so we can defeat it! We can give up or we can fight and I'd really like prayers for mom to fight...and i don't just mean to have a beating heart, but to have a life, to enjoy it.