life after

Whew. So it's been two weeks without my sweet mom and as you can expect, it has not been easy. I miss her dearly. I dream of her every night. Sadly, most dreams are nightmares having to do with her death- funeral, sickness, life without her. I wish there was a way to control dreams.

Thank you to all of you who came to support our family during this tragic time. We really appreciate all the love and the presence of each one of you at the funeral. 

At the burial, we had got unfortunate news that all of our original photos that we submitted for mom's dvd had been destroyed. The carrier was riding a motorcycle and all of our memories flew into the air. Of course, it was a motorcycle. It's funny how numb funeral home directors can become- they offered us a free dvd to try to ease the pain.

Well, my focus right now is to remember mom before she was sick. I want to remember her as she was, not what cancer made her become. It's not that she wasn't a complete doll when she was sick, but she looked sick. She couldn't function as our mother, friend, and teacher.

I am taking some time to get away from the house and hopefully move to Nashville in next couple of months.