Discouraged

I have been doing a lot of talking, reading, and searching about pancreatic cancer over the past month and it breaks my heart to see that I have not read any success stories. Everyone dies and usually pretty quickly after diagnosed. How sad is that? Even if someone is a candidate for the Whipple procedure, the surgery is high-risk and you have an 85% of getting the cancer again.  It blows my mind. This cancer is cruel. All cancer is cruel, but at least we are making strides in some forms of it. However, pancreatic cancer research is the lowest amount of spending of the cancers. 

Also, mom has found out more and more that people know she is very sick and is upset that it wasn't kept private within her social group.  I know some of you are her friends, co-workers, etc reading this now and please respect her wishes to not spread the news like crazy. I don't understand why she wants it to be a secret, because we all need support, but then again, I've always been more open. Mainly, this website is for my friends to pray alongside me. The truth is, I have to face the reality that mom is not going to defeat this cancer. I don't know how long she has. She is going to MD Anderson next week and we will know more. I'm dreading the whole "three months", "a year", etc sentence. She will either live with it for awhile or not so long.

God is in the business of miracles( Thanks Linds) and let's just pray for one! And if He takes her home, please just keep our family and mother in your prayers. The idea and pain of losing your mother and be parent-less is unbearable, but life will go on...

For now, please pray that her pain subsides. It has been constant since her surgery, but I have hopes that she will have good days again without pain.